Worst day ever

Well, yesterday started out ok. It's nice having Marshall home, and he usually lets me sleep in which is awesome! We went out on the town for the after Thanksgiving craziness and were having a great time. That is until we were in Opry Mills and I realized Ellie (Cali's right arm, stuffed elephant that we brought home from the hospital with Cali) was not with us. Initially I didn't exactly freak out, but I was angry. Not sure why, I guess it was just the start of the grieving process. We searched and searched, retraced our steps twice, inquired at every store we went into, and stopped at security twice as well. I think she's really gone. When I finally accepted that in the middle of the mall, I started crying. I just couldn't handle the idea of Cali asking and asking for Ellie and me not being able to give it to her. I wouldn't even be able to explain why she couldn't have her because she wouldn't understand. I had also become very attached to Ellie. It was just so sad. Fortunately, I had a couple of back up Ellie's at home. But I know the difference, and I'm pretty sure Cali does too, and she's just humoring us. I called mom and couldn't control my sobbing, it was as though we had lost a family member. She was trying to be sympathetic, but she was also laughing which made me laugh/cry because I knew how silly I must have sounded, and I know how comical the situation was, I just couldn't help it. I'm going to call security again to see if anyone turned her in, but I'm not hopeful.

Mac just conked out on the floor. I was in here typing and things became awfully quiet (Marshall and Cali are both napping). I went in to check on him, and he had rolled on his side and just fell asleep. He can't be comfortable, but I'm not going to move him for fear he will wake up.

Cali loves her shoes. She even made marshall put them on right before bedtime last night. Of course we took them off before we put her in her crib, she just needed to wear them for a few minutes before. And, as usual, she wouldn't take no for an answer.

Cali's vocabulary is expanding rapidly. She communicates very well. She has attached certain words to things that don't make sense, but we know what she trying to say. For example she says "B" for her pacifier, and she says "nee" when she wants up in the chair.

Becky is coming to stay with us tonight. She hasn't met Mac, and she hasn't seen Cali in a long time. I'm going to go clean up a bit.